Prerna

Andheri zindagi me phir roshni aayi

Banjar zameen pe phir fasal ug aayee

Tumne jo ki hosla afzaaye..

Mujhme likhne ki phir ek prerna jag aayi..

-7/4/08

NAYAA DAUR

Dekho nayaa daur hai aaya,

Saath apne kai rang hai laayaa,

Ab nahin ladkiyaan ghar main ghutati ,

Woh toh hain ladkon se kaandhe milake chalti,

Ab nahin rahaa ghar main ghoonghat,

Auraten gown main hain ghoomti.

Dekho nayaa daur hai aaya,

Saath apne kai rang hai laayaa,

Ab vichaaron ki nadiyaan hain khul ke behti,

Ab logoon ki soch seemit naa rehti,

Ab log naa karte baat chand ki,

Woh toh karte hain koshish mangal par jaane ki.

Dekho nayaa daur hai aaya,

Saath apne kai rang hai laayaa,

Ab toh school-college,

Lejaayaa jaataa hai kitaabon ka boraa,

Chaatra-chaatraayen attendance ke chakkar main

Aate hain college saal pura.

Dekho nayaa daur hai aaya,

Saath apne kai rang hai laayaa,

Ab ladkiyaan dahej nahin hain deti,

Woh to ladkoon ko hain jail main bhejti,

Ab naa rahi arrange marriage ki jhanjhat,

Bachchhe karen luv marriage jhat-pat.

Dekho nayaa daur hai aaya,

Saath apne kai rang hai laayaa,

Ab toh har stri karti hai koshish,

Tulsi ya paarvati banane ki,

Ab toh har mard karta hai koshish,

Miheer se om banane ki.

Dekho nayaa daur hai aaya,

Saath apne kai rang hai laayaa,

Jahan ye naya daur khushiyan,

Lekar hai aayaa,

Wahin isne kai logoon ka

Dil bhi hai dukhaayaa.

Ab naa rahaa choton ke dil main,

Badon ke liye aadar-satkaar,

Aur naa rahaa apno ke prati

Woh pehle waala pyaar.

Ab duniya main badh gayi hai,

Jhooth aur makkaari ki taadaat

Aise main imaandar aur sachchhe log

Mar rahen hain til-til- har din, har raat.

Kyoon naa hum, is naye daur ko,

Naye tareeke se sawaaren

Saath rakhen achchhi baaten aur

Buri aadaton ko nakaaren.

Aayo prem aur sadbhaav se

Hum apne kartavyon ko nibhayen

Apnepan aur khushiyon ke

Ujjwal Rangoon se,

Hum apne maye daur ko sajaayen.

Aur aane waali peedhee ke liye

Ek nayi misaal ban jayen

Aayo, apne is daur ko sajaayen

Apne is daur ko sajaayen.

-24/1/04

Clarity?????

I am high with emotions today... I am not able to understand whr am i wrong exactly... I have few things to do a few goals to achieve in life but somehow i feel something is missing... i am not sure if i am taking the right path.. i have prioritized one of these goals but not able to achieve much... wat can be the reason??? Is there a lack of dedication?? lack of support (of course it is) but is tht lack of support not allowing me to dedicate much to the goal i wanted to achieve in the past few months??

There is something which is eating me from inside... I have tooo many things to do and i see tht the time i have is very little.. there are personal plans, professional goals and quite a few things for the family. how do i know which one to prioritise??? One must be thinking y cant i work on them simultaneously?? but thts not possible and i know it... atleast the first two can be achieved simultaneously but the third one..... Gosh!!! i am at such a mess...

The third one is very important and i know tht if i work for the other two or any of the other two i cant achieve this third one... but if i dont work on the other two now it will be too late and i might not be able to achieve them at all... and the third one.... thst equally important and needs immediate attention as well...

Quite confusing na??? yes it is.... there is stability of thoughts which is missing... thr is a need to analyse the whole situation again to have more clarity... but everytime i think and try analysing i only get more confused... last 9 months i ve spent in reaching a goal... initially thr were no hopes but in the forth to sixth month of my plan i saw a little improvement and my hopes took birth again... i want to continue with it with more dedication but i also see time slipping away from my hands.... i know if i concentrate on this goal of mine properly.. though it will take time i ll surely reach it... but then i also know tht if i dont work out things now for the other goals it will be too late for me and i dont want to regret later as well...


Solution:

for some time, i am pushing aside my personal plans.... i think i can still take some time to think about it.... let me concentrate on my family and professional plans for now... in know its near to impossible to concentrate on both but i guess for time being i can.....

Let me work on these two with full dedication and lets see after a month, wats the progress i have made with each... I just hope and pray and wish and will try not to waste time thinking wat to do and how to do.... I wanna grab every opportunity which comes across to me to achieve these wishes, these plans of mine...

Ameen...

I hope i will be able to sleep now... If not peaceful one, atleast a little rest to the body....