sweet 2!!!

forgot to add.... he is so nice that he even came out with me when he was not well... though this made me go mad at him but then looking at the reason why he did it... I couldn't help but liking him more.. he is a real darling... my buddy :)

Sweet!!! :)

very rarely in life we get a chance to meet someone so nice that their presence itself uplifts our mood and makes us feel better... I am glad i ve come across such a person too..

I wait for the time in day when i get to see him and speak to him a little. the small - small things we do matters so much to me these days... the small arguments we have on... I love those arguments.. i like it when we tease each other for tiny things...

sometimes his answers amaze me... his words make me smile, laugh, giggle,get surprised, and at times embarrass too... but i enjoy each flavor of this relationship... so glad to have another sweet friend around... someone who genuinely cares about me :) someone who reminds me if i am late for lunch... drops me home when i am late... helps me with my doubts, gets me tea bags and soups when i am not well.. asks me if he can get a juice for me when i am busy at work... guides me when i am wrong... warns me when i am nearing a trouble.... lets me throw tantrums... reminds me that i am young girl and life is to enjoy... and allows the kid inside me to enjoy every moment i sped with him :)

and above all this... he is someone who has place for me in his prayers toooooo. Never thought someone will do this also for me... thank you god for making me come across such an amazing person...


I just hope this is not a dream and it doesn't break away... or something like my past experience which will shatter me into pieces again... but watever it is.... it is your wish god....just yours...

i still remember when he told me that he prays for me at times... for a moment i had to hold on to my tears so that he desnt not get embarasseessed. but really never expected him to be like this...

he is not just good to me but others too... dear GOD! please bless him with happiness, prosperity and good health always :)

Intuitions!!! Are they right always???

Do you have intuitions about things often?? or some times called as the sixth sense, does it work for you??
Well, it has always worked for me... good or bad my intuitions have always helped me... ok.. if not always atleast most of the times it has helped me...

with time, these intuitions come to my mind more often... its been many weeks now.. and i ve a strange feeling... I really dont know what it is or what is that feeling trying to hint towards... but its making me very uneasy and day by day i am going more uncomfortable ..... or to use the right word... i am scared...

ya thats wat it is... i am scared... of wat ??? I really dont know... my intuitions indicate that in some time something wrong is gonna happen with me... something which is not good at all... something which is gonna be very big... something which is going to change my life totally... and the bottom line is... Its not gonna be good... this feeling has been troubling me from many weeks now... and because of it i am imagining all wrong things .....

i am not finding a way to come out of it... in a way i am preparing my for the worst... but then, i really dont know what wrong is going to happen... I feel like i am going to lose something or someone very important to me... and i dont know why but i ve been feeling like this a lot these days...

Am I being very concerned about something/someone that this feeling is troubling me so much.. I really dont know... sometimes i just feel like crying... for what???? I don't know :( but i am very upset from two days..

Off course i am not showing it off to others... i am smiling and giggling and being all happy before others but something is breaking inside.. and its hurting big time... my heart is aching.... I know it sounds like too melodramatic but its true...

i am not able to explain it well.. i agree there are quite a many things about which i am worried but then, i am not able to figure out as to which of it (or something else) is troubling me so much that i am feeling so uneasy so scared.. so depressed....
i am not liking to be like this but i am very upset... everynight before i go to bed i dont feel the happiness from inside... instead i feel so tired of the fake smile i ve been spreading around... its not that i don't like the company of others or i don't love them... but then something is stopping me from being myself..

i am too worried inside... i am too concerned... i am being too sensitive day by day... and i know its not doing any good to me...

GOD!!!!! do you mind giving me a little strength in overcoming this... i don't wanna be like this .... I don't understand why am i feeling so miserable... i shouldn't be miserable about anything... i have loving family, good job, caring frnds then why should i feel bad... pls get me out of this... this feeling is killing me inside... pls...

Why??

Why me??? why is it happening all over again and again...

I understand each one of us have a basic nature... and I know that I have a very outgoing nature but then I sometimes feel that I create trouble for myself be being the way I am. I mean what is the need for me to be sweet and nice to all in this bad world :( I every time accept each person I come across with an open heart and then get hurt... No, I am not blaming others here...

I am just complaining about myself... I know there is a real difference in the way others look at relationships (friendships) and the way I do... I know that the way i give importance to others, others will now but then..... why do i still feel bad when people behave a little carefree... why????

why do i get used to someone so easily, why should i even allow people to be my good frnd so quickly and easily,.... and i hate changes which occur in friendship, infact any relationship... things become a routine so soon.... people become so important so soon... am I so lonely inside, that I allow everyone to come close to me and then get hurt....

Ok, I know this particular article doesnt make any sense to you... let it be... as I am just penning down my thoughts cos I dont want to feel bad about things and not because I want someone to read it and judge me... no....

The whole point is I am an idiot to do this to myself. first talk to everyone i come across (well, that a par of my job too) then be friendly with them. then very soon allow them to be close to me (become my real good pal) and then want it to be like that always.... which never happens...GOd!!! ya I am referring to a new friend here... Suddenly I have become so used to this frnd that one day if we dont speak then my day seems to be incomplete... It will be too much to ask if I force my friend yo talk to me atleast for few mins,.. I cant do that, cos I know I am not the other person's priority, but then why should i feel bad if the other person is not able to give me ample time... its their chioce right....


anyways, all i know is i have to be a little more stern with people... and have no expectations with people around... I hope that helps.. not penning down my thoughts more cos I feel to stop here... Though i actually have lots more to say