Siblings..

Today while suddenly chatting to a frnd,came up the topic of siblings. And this thought or feeling came into my mind. I felt as if I ve been deprived of the happiness of having a sibling who can - talk to you, love you, teach you things , learn from you, fight with you, compete with u, be ur best pal, same time be the most irritating person of earth...and so on..

How I wish I had someone to share all these feelings with :( but then I also see tht my sister gave me a reason to live, to do something, its because of her tht i ve some dreams, a vision of my future. I am wat i am mostly because of her. Its the wish of giving her a good future made me so serious about my life and my desires..

I dont know if I shud be sad or glad. All i know is I love her and may god never bring such a day in my life whr my love and care for her reduces even a little.. I love you and will always do dear sis :) God Bless You....

his rudeness or my over friendliness??

It was closed to nine thirty or ten when I sent a text message to this newly made friend of mine. We have few common friends and one of them has her birthday this Tuesday. I was asking him last night (thro gtalk) if we could plan a surprise b'day party for her or something. I told him that I ll plan out something and let everyone know. But only this morning I realized that I am actually going out of town on tuesday so it wont be possible for me to be there on her birthday.

I dint message him the whole day thinking he must be at work and i shouldn't disturb. Sometime back I sent him a text message regretting my unavailability for the birthday. and we just exchanged two three messages and suddenly he says - excuse me mam. i am out now. :(

It was like slamming a door on my face. How am i suppose to know he is out... and for gods sake, there are hundred better ways to say that he is busy... why does he have to be so rude to me??? Just because I talk, keep making fun and behave kiddish doesn't mean i am stupid. I ve self respect.

Sometimes I feel its my mistake to be so nice to strangers... cos many of them don't deserve this good behavior.

Marriage *$&^&()$%^%&(&

Eh... The very word scares me so much... I ve goosebumps when i think about it. Its not tht I dont wanna get married. Its just that I am not sure, if I will happen to meet a guy who meets my expectation(s).

Its been more than a year that I ve been postponing the very topic of marriage. But now, my parents are getting a little serious about it. I am telling them that I want to marry someone whom I know well, whom I choose for self. I kind of don't believe much in arrange marriages. I mean the very concept of arrange marriage doesn't sound great to me. How can I decide whether I like someone on the basis of a ten mins meeting??? Ten mins would not be enough to even know about his likes and dislikes. I don't know how can a life long decision be made just like that. when I tell my mom, that I wanna marry a guy of my choice and ask her not to look for someone outside our city she asks me only one question - " do u like someone?? let me know. We will get you married with him. Dont ever think of running away or something"

The pity is I don't like anyone :( Look at the irony there are many of my friends who are struggling to convince their parents to get them married to a person of their choice. And here, my parents are ready to get me married to a person of my choice but I don't have any :(((

Its not that I am looking for some very handsome, multimillionaire type of a guy. I want to live my life with a simple guy, who loves and respects his family, who is intelligent, has an outgoing nature, who understands my responsibilities and, if not help at least let me take care of them. And most important someone from my city only. I don't wanna relocate :( plss

I think if these things are there, then the rest can be adjusted or taken care of. But the problem is I don't find any guy like this anywhere?? DO you know anyone?? Then just let me know.. Plss

Please God, I wanna meet my Mr. Right. I dont wanna get married the arranged way :( NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO PLs.

I will meet him some day na ??

Friends - An inseparable part of life :)

I was so irritated, dull and unwell yesterday until I received a call from my friend, Div. Its not tht we spoke after a long time, we spoke just day before yesterday but our conversations went so long and we spoke so much, that I totally forgot about my bad mood and every other tension i had...

Thanks Div :) you made up my day. Its always so nice catching up with you:) Love you sweetie :)

Hope 2

Wondering why I am writing a sequel to Hope??? Well, I am yet to receive an answer from the organization where I had been for an interview yesterday :( I shall wait till tomorrow, otherwise I will inquire from my end. I am banking on it. Lets see.

Well, I received another call today. It was from one of the Fortune 500 companies. The discussion went on well. The caller kind of fixed up the interview for tomorrow, until he asked me about my compensation and expectation. And he had a second thought I guess, cos my last drawn CTC is quite high when compared to the market trends. I am not looking for any hike I explained, he said he will look into it and call me back tomorrow :(

I don't know why you always do this to me God???? Every time I think, that yes this is it... you somehow mess it up for me :( You play with me as the children tease each other in school.
A child shows lollipop to another, asks him to have it and when the other one opens his mouth to taste it, the first one puts it in his own mouth..... I feel like that second child... every time U do this to me... aren't you tired of all this??? Or you don't have anybody else than me to trouble????? tell me???

I am telling you its more than enough now... PLS STOP PLAYING WITH ME :(

But let me tell you one thing... Even I will not give up so soon... Trust me on this .....

Hope

I was surfing the net this morning and I received a call from my ex-boss. was quite surprised to know why she called me. Her husbands team has a vacancy and she wanted to know if I am interested. It was a recruiters profile and I immediately said yes. she said tht the requirement is immediate and its on contract. I was taken away for a min but then thought why not. I said yes and she fixed up an interview with her husband in the evening.

I reached the venue before time and completed the initial formalities. Her husband was kind enough to me and dint grill me much as he said he knows about my work and other things. He then made me meet one of the Heads and the discussion with him went for sometime and went in a good manner as well.

I guess I ll mostly get this position. But there are two major concerns with this job:
1. Its on contract for just three months
2. The pay is not even half of what i was receiving earlier.

I think in this job scenario where no one is recruiting, I better opt for it. cos if I do so, I will get experienced in hard core recruitment which will add weight to my profile. and once i start working, it will be even more easy for me to look for a better opportunity. though the pay is less, but its certainly better than no pay :)

so i am going for it and I hope they take me in...

Pray for me :)

Devil Kisser - Turn Off

I really dont know how irksome can one behave??

Last week, I was at the library preparing for some exams. The whole day I was sitting and reading. In the time period of six hours which i spent at the library, thr were some ten men who sat next to me at different times. and one among them even borrowed a white sheet from me to copy his notes.

the irksome behaviour was. . . when I opened my notebook the next day, I see a chit in it. Some one left it with the following written / scribbled on it :

I would like to be your friend

rajesh, (then something scribbled) 9962613828

devil.kisser@rediff.com

What I dont understand is, how can he even imagine tht someone wud reply to such lousy act of his??? I got so irritated for a sec,...
but then posted it on my Facebook and had humorous reply from my frnds. The best suggestion was to give his number to all the telecallers who call up from banks and financial institutions.. Tht was funny..

still cant believe people are so desperate to do all this... Phew ..

14th sept 09

Thr are so many things which happened in last few days.. Nothing very big and all.. but ya some good and bad things lets start with the good ones :
1. My best frnd gets engaged
2. another frnd has found his life partner and they are getting engaged soon.
3. my college mate is gettin married this month :) she came home for lunch and we had some good time :)
4. I liked some one at one of the functions ;) ha ha ha isnt it good, i mean i took interest in someone :)
5. kept myself busy for a fortnight with books, as I was preparing for an exam
6. Some of my relatives came down and I went around with them

now coming to the not so good things :(

1. went for an interview, cleared two rounds but failed in the last one
2. The test for which i was preparing for so long, dint do it well. The time was not sufficient to complete it
3. still confused as to what i am aiming at in life..

in cut short, this is how my last twenty days went ... but as I keep myself saying, the good things are yet to come and they WILL COME :)