Special someone!!

Special Someone :)

The very thought of whom brings a smile on your face...
Someone who turns your heartbeat fast when he comes close to you..
Someone who makes you feel special in every way he can...
Someone who is ready to even do stupid things just to bring a smile on your sad face...
Someone who by just looking at you understands there is something running in your mind...
yes... I am taking about that special someone who tries his best to make you feel special :)

And I am glad I have a special someone in my life :)

He lets the child in me talk, play, mess around and behave mischievously. He pampers me so much that sometimes my eyes go moist enjoying it.. he waits for me when i am late at work and leaves me home safe... he immediately thinks about taking me for dinner of my choice when i say i am hungry... he is always so ready to make me comfortable that sometimes i doubt if he is human of some godly figure... the very touch of his makes me forget all my worries.. he is someone whom i can talk to about anything and everything... he is someone who allows me to be adamant at times :) but ya not for long :)

he knows well how to change my mood when i am upset with something (but he feels bad when sometimes he is not able to realize that i was upset :( with something ) he is someone who's sad face turns me sad too :( the love he has for his family makes me realize where i have been not so good with my family... he gives small small advises to make me a better person.. he makes sure he remembers all that i have said i wish for and tries to fulfill as many of them as he can.. he is my santa who wants to do as much as he can for me but never asks for anything back, in fact never even asks for anything from me ...

his company makes me feel so good and comfortable that i am ready to forget the whole world and spend time only with him.. there is so much to write about him but i only turn emotional when i start thinking about him... why is it so difficult to pen down all that i feel about him??? :(

I have lots to say about my buddy, but suddenly words have got stuck in my throat and i am feeling heavy, probably because i know his friendship not for too long.... and i am gonna miss him later.....

Love you dear.......... you will always be very special to me and no one will ever be able to take your place in my heart ... May GOD bless you always and may you be happy ever...

I wish I could write more........

sweet 2!!!

forgot to add.... he is so nice that he even came out with me when he was not well... though this made me go mad at him but then looking at the reason why he did it... I couldn't help but liking him more.. he is a real darling... my buddy :)

Sweet!!! :)

very rarely in life we get a chance to meet someone so nice that their presence itself uplifts our mood and makes us feel better... I am glad i ve come across such a person too..

I wait for the time in day when i get to see him and speak to him a little. the small - small things we do matters so much to me these days... the small arguments we have on... I love those arguments.. i like it when we tease each other for tiny things...

sometimes his answers amaze me... his words make me smile, laugh, giggle,get surprised, and at times embarrass too... but i enjoy each flavor of this relationship... so glad to have another sweet friend around... someone who genuinely cares about me :) someone who reminds me if i am late for lunch... drops me home when i am late... helps me with my doubts, gets me tea bags and soups when i am not well.. asks me if he can get a juice for me when i am busy at work... guides me when i am wrong... warns me when i am nearing a trouble.... lets me throw tantrums... reminds me that i am young girl and life is to enjoy... and allows the kid inside me to enjoy every moment i sped with him :)

and above all this... he is someone who has place for me in his prayers toooooo. Never thought someone will do this also for me... thank you god for making me come across such an amazing person...


I just hope this is not a dream and it doesn't break away... or something like my past experience which will shatter me into pieces again... but watever it is.... it is your wish god....just yours...

i still remember when he told me that he prays for me at times... for a moment i had to hold on to my tears so that he desnt not get embarasseessed. but really never expected him to be like this...

he is not just good to me but others too... dear GOD! please bless him with happiness, prosperity and good health always :)

Intuitions!!! Are they right always???

Do you have intuitions about things often?? or some times called as the sixth sense, does it work for you??
Well, it has always worked for me... good or bad my intuitions have always helped me... ok.. if not always atleast most of the times it has helped me...

with time, these intuitions come to my mind more often... its been many weeks now.. and i ve a strange feeling... I really dont know what it is or what is that feeling trying to hint towards... but its making me very uneasy and day by day i am going more uncomfortable ..... or to use the right word... i am scared...

ya thats wat it is... i am scared... of wat ??? I really dont know... my intuitions indicate that in some time something wrong is gonna happen with me... something which is not good at all... something which is gonna be very big... something which is going to change my life totally... and the bottom line is... Its not gonna be good... this feeling has been troubling me from many weeks now... and because of it i am imagining all wrong things .....

i am not finding a way to come out of it... in a way i am preparing my for the worst... but then, i really dont know what wrong is going to happen... I feel like i am going to lose something or someone very important to me... and i dont know why but i ve been feeling like this a lot these days...

Am I being very concerned about something/someone that this feeling is troubling me so much.. I really dont know... sometimes i just feel like crying... for what???? I don't know :( but i am very upset from two days..

Off course i am not showing it off to others... i am smiling and giggling and being all happy before others but something is breaking inside.. and its hurting big time... my heart is aching.... I know it sounds like too melodramatic but its true...

i am not able to explain it well.. i agree there are quite a many things about which i am worried but then, i am not able to figure out as to which of it (or something else) is troubling me so much that i am feeling so uneasy so scared.. so depressed....
i am not liking to be like this but i am very upset... everynight before i go to bed i dont feel the happiness from inside... instead i feel so tired of the fake smile i ve been spreading around... its not that i don't like the company of others or i don't love them... but then something is stopping me from being myself..

i am too worried inside... i am too concerned... i am being too sensitive day by day... and i know its not doing any good to me...

GOD!!!!! do you mind giving me a little strength in overcoming this... i don't wanna be like this .... I don't understand why am i feeling so miserable... i shouldn't be miserable about anything... i have loving family, good job, caring frnds then why should i feel bad... pls get me out of this... this feeling is killing me inside... pls...

Why??

Why me??? why is it happening all over again and again...

I understand each one of us have a basic nature... and I know that I have a very outgoing nature but then I sometimes feel that I create trouble for myself be being the way I am. I mean what is the need for me to be sweet and nice to all in this bad world :( I every time accept each person I come across with an open heart and then get hurt... No, I am not blaming others here...

I am just complaining about myself... I know there is a real difference in the way others look at relationships (friendships) and the way I do... I know that the way i give importance to others, others will now but then..... why do i still feel bad when people behave a little carefree... why????

why do i get used to someone so easily, why should i even allow people to be my good frnd so quickly and easily,.... and i hate changes which occur in friendship, infact any relationship... things become a routine so soon.... people become so important so soon... am I so lonely inside, that I allow everyone to come close to me and then get hurt....

Ok, I know this particular article doesnt make any sense to you... let it be... as I am just penning down my thoughts cos I dont want to feel bad about things and not because I want someone to read it and judge me... no....

The whole point is I am an idiot to do this to myself. first talk to everyone i come across (well, that a par of my job too) then be friendly with them. then very soon allow them to be close to me (become my real good pal) and then want it to be like that always.... which never happens...GOd!!! ya I am referring to a new friend here... Suddenly I have become so used to this frnd that one day if we dont speak then my day seems to be incomplete... It will be too much to ask if I force my friend yo talk to me atleast for few mins,.. I cant do that, cos I know I am not the other person's priority, but then why should i feel bad if the other person is not able to give me ample time... its their chioce right....


anyways, all i know is i have to be a little more stern with people... and have no expectations with people around... I hope that helps.. not penning down my thoughts more cos I feel to stop here... Though i actually have lots more to say

Friends again ;)

No no no no...... This is not a sequel to my earlier blog "Friends - an inseparable part of Life" This is something new and exciting..

As I stated earlier, Friends are very important to us. In all stages of our lives, they are the only ones who stay always with us. And looks like I am too blessed by God when it comes to friends (Touch wood ;) )

Well, in just last two months, three good things happened to me. In the month of September, I happened to get in touch with my primary school mate.. His name is Krishna, we had lost track of each other after our primary education. After 14 years, I happened to get in touch with him. He was my buddy at school, we used to take part in all activities together at school. Whether it was studies, dramatics, dance or any other competitions we were the best competitors. I remember very well, how in third standard, every alternate examination, both of used to get 1st and 2nd rank in the class. I still remember how he made a greeting card for me once and presented. I also remember how he used to steal my tiffin and run away ;) my rakhi brother  God, I missed you so much, all this years .. good you are back :)

Now, the second good thing is very similar, there is this frnd of mine who studied with me from 6th to 12th. This girl was one of the toppers in the class but she always used to sleep in the class. I still wonder how she managed to be the topper without being attentive in classes. Well, that’s not the catch. The good thing which happened is last week, I was traveling by train and I just bumped into her. For ten mins, we dint know how to react.??? Both of us were really surprised. I still cant explain in words as to how excited I was to see her. I still remember and will always be greatful to her for all her help during my tenth. She used to prepare a timetable for both of us and we used to sit and study everyday as per our timetable. I think I got good marks in my borad exams only because of her. Thanks GOD forgiving me a chance to get in touch with her again and probably thank her for all that she has done :) :) :)

Well, the final good thing which happened is I made a new friend. Ya, I know u must be thinking wats so special about it, I make friends every other day. But, this person is really special. Just like my other special friends he is also a little older than me. (Looks like I go well only with people elder to me :p I already have five frnds like tht ;) ) Now, what I like bout him is – he is sensible, thoughtful, and good at heart. Sometimes he is so sweet tht I feel my thank you’s are small to make him realize how good I feel when he is around.

Today, I was upset the whole day, but a little time and patient listening of his made my day  May God always bless him and my other friends so that they keep the ones around them happy and spread joy around.

I love you all my dear friends and glad to have each one of you. Thanks again GOD. As, I said I am really lucky to have so many good friends :) :) :)

Thanks GOD!!

Its been a month since I have started working again. After cursing God on my earlier blogs, yes its time to thank him :) Thanks for keeping the best for me :) I am glad and now i can be assured tht i will achieve atleast one of those three goals i ve spoken about in the earlier blogs... I hope one by one I am able to start working on each of my goals :)

Thanks again GOD!!